Coz We Were Meant To Be

Whats in it

2012-01-31T13:38:00.001+08:00

Read Mary's blog on what is in her overloaded makeup bag. :p

Thought I could do the same too.
Just for fun!
Im not much of a makeup junkie, but I do feel it is important to at least look presentable at all time.

Well, I have 2 different sets for work and for going out on weekends or occasions. We'll just take a look at what I bring in my bag daily for work.Here goes:

1) The bag I got free from buying the Burberry Body fragrance. I thought it is quite nice and handy for makeups. This is the bag I bring with me daily everywhere I go, in case I need to touch up. You never know if you need to meet up some important people at work or had a last minute surprise date with hubby. So MUST touch up! :)

2) This is my first Brown coloured mascara. It has 2 steps to it. 1st is just a simple brush for simple lengthening of lashes. The 2nd step is a thicker brush for volumnising. This has got to be my favourite mascara so far. Because it is brown so it looks more natural and that the effect really does show.

I got it at my company's internal sale, which they organise occasionally. Bought it at $4 ONLY! I love internal sale! Such a steal! Im not sure where to get this elsewhere in SG. Anybody knows?

3) Im using Maybelline Clear Smooth Extra powder. It's texture is of course smooth and it feels light on the skin too. Perfect for daily wear. Easy to wash off also!

4) For some healthy glow, I got myself this small but handy blusher by Maybelline. I use it sparingly and occasionally if there's an important meeting with the management or meet up with friends or hubby after work. Otherwise, I just skip this part.. hee..

5) Now this, is my favourite eyeliner since school days. It is really dark, I love how it gives the mystical look to my peepers..cheyyy.. and it is inexpensive too! you can find this almost everywhere at Arab st. I use this occasionally too. For when I want to look extra mysterious or nak-step-Arab-looking! lol!

6) I have several lipsticks, Clinique, MAC etc..But for work, I stick to this Lip Ice Mentholatum. Its a lip Balm and it makes my lips look ~~kissable~~ healthy!

7) I do housework. Not to brag, but I do! *senyum nampak gigi sebaris* So my hands tend to feel rough all the time. Sometimes too rough. :( So i always have a hand lotion in my bag. Bought this at a shop at Kallang Leisure Park, cant remember the name though. But it's got a nice smell.

I have several other lotions that I keep within reach at home, next to my bed, on my office desk, in the car's dashboard. That's how obsessed I am with hand lotion! heh!

So there, my daily makeup bag! :)

Our Little Knight!

2012-01-18T13:32:00.000+08:00

It was finally revealed!

Lil 'A decided to show Abah and Ummi that Lil 'A will be
our little Knight!

We were elated, Alhamdulillah!
My husband was happy, he wanted a boy, especially for a first child.
He constantly prayed for a son, (even before I got pregnant!) several times each day specifically asked Allah for a son.
He believed in his Dua so much so that, when I finally got pregnant, he said read or listen to Surah Yusuf.
When asked what if the baby is a girl, and that we should also recite surah Maryam in case its a girl,
his answer was simple, Believe. Have Faith.

And so, believe I did. As days goes by, the feeling that we will be getting a boy felt real, it felt true.
I even dreamt of playing with a little baby boy.

Alhamdulillah!
Allah IS Great! :')

I pray that Lil 'A will grow up as a strong believer in his Faith and in whatever he strive to succeed in. Amin! :)

2012 will change OUR lives..forever

2012-01-03T17:54:00.000+08:00

So...It's 2012 already huh?

Time really flies! Cliche, I know, but one cant deny..

2012 is definitely going to be one eventful year for me,
with many milestones to remember.

I know for sure, It will be a year where I will have to overcome my biggest fear ever,
PAIN!

I will be 5 months along next week,
and yes I have been whining about pain, nausea and everything that comes under the sun ever since I got pregnant.

I am grateful that I got the chance to experience what every married woman wants to experience. I fully understand the package that comes with pregnancy.

It's just that when I am feeling discomfort and pain, I want to say it out, which sometime sounds whiny..heehee..I hope that by saying or tweeting it out will help ease off the discomfort. Sharing is caring whaaat...:p

I still cant believe that I will be giving birth this year! ya Allah! betul ke nie..Mcm seram je..heh..

The moment, I get into labor, THATS when my life or shall I say OUR lives will change forever...2012 will be THE MOST MEMORABLE year of my life so far.

2012 started off with me being able to feel my baby's movements. It feels like a fluttering of something inside. When I tried to touch my tummy where Im feeling it, there's nothing. I guess this is the special moment where I am the ONLY person who can feel my child. :')

At times I felt a sudden tightness on certain part of my tummy, and it felt really hard when touched. Told my hubby and when we gently rubbed the hard part of the tummy, it moved away..and we instantly knew that its our baby! :') Hubby was of course in awe, that was his first time ever..:')

As of now, I will feel my baby move everyday, a few times a day and feel like he is communicating with me, telling me, "Ummi, Im here okay...talk to me pweeashe!" hihi..

I am hoping to feel more stronger kicks in future so that hubby can get to experience it too..:)

aaaah....2012.....:)

2nd leg of the race, starts now

2011-11-16T18:50:00.000+08:00

The first trimester is over.
Im glad.
Alhamdulillah!

Nausea is still there,
vomiting lessened,
Giddiness and symptoms of 'blacking out' have come.

This, is what scares me the most.
I hope I wont ever have to 'blackout' in public transport. :(

Lil' A is now growing,
I can feel it.
My tummy is getting tighter and more bloated looking.
As long as our baby is growing healthily, Im contented. :)

Im 3 months preggy now,
Its 6 more months to go.

I do not know how to explain what I am feeling about giving birth.
I am the kind with low tolerance level towards pain,
so it is kinda scary when I think about it.
Everyday, I think about things that can make me a brave person,
one who is not scared of pain.

For now,
I only have Allah to guide my heart and give me strength.

Im taking one step at a time,
trying to be more focused on eating healthy, be happy, praying on time and reading the Quran as much as possible.

I.Know.I.Am.Strong.

Dear Hubby

2011-10-13T12:40:00.028+08:00

Dear,
I Love YOU.
Do you know that?
I Love you for everything little things you do for me,
I Love you for being there with me,
I Love you for being YOU.

On your special day,
no gifts or birthday cakes can amount to the love that you've showered me with.
YOU deserve the best and I'Allah the best is yet to come.
Allah will open the doors to endless possibilities for us to explore and learn together.
And may that possibilities be the best for out little family. :')

Nurul sayang Uzai tau, k...:)

Happy Birthday Dear!

Smelly smelly the nose is naughty

2011-10-12T00:20:00.001+08:00

Hello world!

Reporting at 12.12am.
Just vomited some wierd tasting bile!
(disgusting I know! Hihi)

Latest discovery, I cannot go to foodcourts! The smell! Urgh!
Smell of food also causes my throat to clamp up..
The dilemma is that I am hungry but I cant go near food...sobs!

Now, Lil' A be good k...
Mommy wants to sleep...(^_^)

A few more hours to 7 weeks

2011-10-10T13:02:00.000+08:00

Past few days have been a dilemma for me.
Nauseousness overload!

Hungry = Nausea
Eat food = Nausea

Im ALWAYS hungry, but when food is in front of my eyes,
my throat just clamps up.
Even if it my favourite food! :s
because of that I can only eat about 2 to 3 spoonfuls.

I feel sorry for the lil one, he/she needs all the nutritions possible.
Hopefully, the nauseousness will go away soon and I can eat and EAT.

Worried

2011-10-06T13:38:00.000+08:00

Im worried.
I'm overcame by a myriad of emotions.

The 1st Gynae appointment is still around 3 weeks away.
Why is it that it takes so long to wait for appointments.
As of now I hope the pregnancy that is happening to me is real as real as can be.
Im starting to think, what if it is just in my mind.
But if it is, then why the +ve?
why am I feeling wierd stuff in me and why are my girlies SUPER sore?

Told myself again and again never to worry.
Dr Masayu have already confirmed that there is in fact 'a bun in the oven'.
I am trying very hard to concentrate on my well-being and not think of nonsensical stuff.

I wish I can skip to the appointment date already.

-_-

*6 Weeks 2 Days*

Smooth-sailing

2011-10-05T15:23:00.001+08:00

At 6 weeks 1 day
I am feeling alright...
The girls are still pretty much sore,
I'm nauseous as and when but still very tolerable...
Also, been going to the loo for uncountable number of times...probably triggerred by the amount of water I drank...

Apart from that, everything is pretty smooth...
Maybe it is still early...I do hope it will be smooth-sailing throughout...

Firsts

2011-10-03T17:30:00.001+08:00

'girlfirend's' sore -checked
Nausea w/o throwing up - checked
Slight cramps - checked
Feeling 'full' - checked
Light-headed - checked

Well, assalamualaikum lil' one! :)

At 5 weeks 6 days!

Gratitude

2011-10-03T13:47:00.001+08:00

I welcomed the month of Oct Twenty Eleven with a huge gratitude to the Almighty.
Woke up to a very good news.

Going for the confirmation tonight.
All is well I'Allah.

Terima Kasih Allah. :)

Nothing good to say? So ZIP it!

2011-09-26T14:15:00.001+08:00

"Jangan kamu bertanya/berkata sesuatu yang boleh memberatkan/membebankan perasaan orang yang ditanya"
(translation: Do not ask/say unto others whatever that may cause them to feel heavy-hearted/disturbed)

Recently, I've been asked a few questions that in my personal opinion, SHOULD be banned. At times, I'm caught off-guard with these questions. I dont know whether the person asking is purely innocently asking out of concern or are they just dumb.

I've listed below some questions I've been asked:

1) Before I was married, "Eh, bila kau punya turn?" (when's you turn?)

2) After I got Married, "Bila nak ada baby??" (when are you going to have a baby?)

And since, I do not have any child yet, I frequently get these questions:

3) Da berapa lama kahwin, kenapa takde anak lagi?? (you've been married for sometime already, why no baby yet?) - Remind me again how long have I been married? 10? 20 years? Major DUH!

4) Da ada isi belom? (Got anything in you tum-tum already?) - Yah! got Sh** inside! LOL!

5) Kau ni lambat betullah (nak ada anak)! (you took so long to get pregnant and have a baby!) - Eh! dengar2 baby boleh beli je kat kedai?

6) Bila nak tambah umat Muhammad, jangan tgg lama2 nanti kena soal dekat akhirat (When are you going to increase Muhammad's ummah, Dont wait too long, you will be questioned later at the Akhirah) - and...who are you, again sir?

and the very recent one I got is,
7) Tinggal rumah sendiri berdua je? tak sunyi ke? (you're staying at your own house just the two of you? dont you feel lonely?) - *insert thunder storm and lightning sound*

Initially I find it annoying when we were always asked these sort of questions. After a while, we thought, the best answer would be to say "I'Allah, sedang diusahakan. Awak doakan kami ye" (I'Allah, we're trying, pray for us okay)

What better way to answer that than to ask people to pray for us ain it? at least when the Malaikats Amin, who knows Allah will grant their doas.

But recently, I find the questions that people asked to be more and more.....STUPID?

Question No. 7 really stumped me. WHY on earth would we feel lonely when we are 2 people in love, who chose to marry each other and live with each other? I mean, what are marriages between 2 people for if you want to be with each other and feel lonely?? right? no?

Maybe I took the question the wrong way or something. Maybe I was too sensitive. Relax ah people, apa mau kanchiong. Kita berusaha, Tuhan menentukan. Kalau ada rezeki, I'Allah akan ada.

Which is why I remembered the quotes above, which I heard from Irsyad Radio during Ramadhan. We really should be careful to whom we ask a certain question, especially if we are not that close with the person we are asking the questions to and in which situation. We never know if we might end up hurting others, or make them feel sad unnecessarily.

At least I know I was okay thought-wise until some people decides to ask these type of questions and then I start to feel disturbed. Moreover if they ask questions with a certain sinister tones like "I have a child and you dont? haha."

So people, lets learn from now to be more mindful of our questions k.

Cheers!

Little Princess's Birthday

2011-09-09T14:13:00.003+08:00

Nine.September.Twenty.Eleven

6 years ago, she was delivered to a mixed of emotion.
Despite everything that has happened, she was the apple of everyone's eyes.
I was exceptionally happy because she was the next 'related-by-blood' girl after me, in the family.
I used to want to have another girl in the family, so that explains why I absolutely adore her.

Furthermore, she was the first grandchild in my family.
She used to be such a crybaby when she was younger. I still remember how she would cry and cry whenever she came over.
But when she grew out of that, she makes people around her smile with her chatter and liveliness.
I miss that.

Today,
she is a smart and pretty little 6 year old girl.
I pray that she will be a strong girl and make good of herself.
God knows she deserves a better life.
I pray that she will be surrounded by happiness around her.

Happy Birthday Princess!
Though we cant see each other much now, do know that
I Love You and I Miss You.

LOVE, Auntie Nurul

Blogger app

2011-09-09T09:32:00.001+08:00

I just found out about this app from my husband a while ago!

Super excited abt it! Been waiting for ages for Blogspot to have its own app! And its FREE!

So you blogspot fans out there, here's a shoutout to you: Go Get you Blogger App TODAY! :)

Im blogging via this app now...:)

Now im a happy girl! :)

Bits & Pieces of My Syawal

2011-09-05T19:57:00.000+08:00

Syawal 2011 was a small affair for me and family.
As we grow older, Syawal does not seem to be that much of a big deal, aint it?
Reading my friends' tweets is evident enough.

Came 1st of Syawal, it felt like I have a big burden on my shoulders (eyelids too!)
It was really a tiring day.
I even took half day of work the next day just to go back home and SLEEP! haha..

Nevertheless, even if we dont quite feel as excited as we used to be for Hari Raya,
It is still important for us to feel a teeny bit happy for Syawal.
Afterall, it is a day of celebration for Muslims.
We are encouraged to feel and be happy on this day.
'Eid is a gift for Allah to those who observe their fast.
So, dont forget to show some love okay..:)

Alhamdulillah, this year marked my 2nd year of Syawal as a wife.
This year is also the first time I felt really satisfied with what we have achieved for our house.
It felt much more......Homey and Complete. :)
Alhamdulillah. :)

Here's some bits & pieces of my 'Eid:

Hope its not too late to wish Selamat Hari Raya to my readers, IF there's any. teehee..=)

Solemn 'Eid

2011-08-24T13:24:00.001+08:00

'Eid is less than a week away, It's a call for celebration with family and friends.

However, this year, I feel a little sad thinking about some family affairs that has happened for the past few months. Solemn. I hope I can be strong when 1st Syawal comes.:'(

Anyways, Im sharing my 2 most favourite, non-Siti Nurhaliza Raya songs. I dont know why but these 2 songs make me tear each time. Abeh suka lagu nie, nk nyanyi jugak! But I cant sing them without choking with tears! (>.<)

Pulanglah - Aisyah:

Kepulangan yang Dinanti - Dayang Nurfaizah's rendition:

In case I didnt get to blog again anytime soon,
I would like to seek forgiveness from my fellow sisters and brothers in Islam, should I have ever said or did anything that might have hurt you, with or without realising it, for I am a human. To err is human and to learn from them is our responsibility.

Wsalam.

Its not meant to be, yet

2011-08-23T16:40:00.000+08:00

'Bestfriend' is finally here.
The wait is over.
Miss P was naughty coming late and making me nervous and confused.

Its not meant to be just yet.
A teeny weeny bit dissappointed.
But its okay. Maybe next month.

Looking on the bright side,
At least I can really dress up on the first day of Raya! *pujuk hati*
Maybe I should buy false lashes, since last year was a failure coz I needed to pray and the falsies just wont stick again coz I had to put it on and off again before and after ablution. #longestsentenceever

So with this I will have a total of 7 days to payback my puasa. erk!

k k bye.

To be or not meant to be?

2011-08-19T18:30:00.001+08:00

Im a day late.

Hopes are starting to bloom.

Signs are existent but a few.

Trying to calm myself down so that if its not meant to be, I wont feel dissappointed.

Good girl.

- Posted from my iPhone

Ahlan Wa Sahlan Ya Ramadhan

2011-07-31T18:15:00.000+08:00

Salam 'Alaikum!

Ramadhan is back again. Let's welcome it humbly and with much happiness! :)

Ahlan Ahlan Ya Ramadhan! :)

Like other muslimin, muslimat, mu'minin and mu'minat,

I pray to Allah that I can achieve a better Ramadhan than previous years.

Oh Allah, please grant me the strength and health to perform my utmost best for this Ramadhan.

Amin Amin Ya Allah.

Selamat menyambut Ramadhan dan menunaikan ibadah puasa dengan sebaik-baiknya..:)

I did it!

2011-07-25T19:19:00.001+08:00

Sunday, 24th July 2011.
It was such a memorable day for me.
In my pursuit to lead a healthy lifestyle, i decided to join the annual SHAPE RUN 2011. I joined the 5km run..

Now, as someone who was not an avid jogger, i was a little worried..i thought i would give up halfway...my feet was aching, my heartbeat so fast, my face red and sweaty and i was gasping for air..it was really a challenge both physically and mentally.

Before the run, my heart was beating, i was nervous...luckily i had my husband there to give me his support..he had been my pillar of strength. :)

Throughout the run, i battled with myself..part of me was giving up, another part was telling me to keep going, never give up and that i can do this...i even chugged 3 cups of isotonic drinks, which i so despise! :s Just for the sake of finishing the run..

Just when i hit the 4km mark, i saw my husband standing there waiting for me, my morale was definitely boosted! *i know im so drama, as if im running in a marathon!* but it was my first time, and i knew i had to do my best even if it is just for fun..:D

Finally! When i saw the finishing line, i ran like i never ran before, well partly because i badly need to pee! Haha..

Finishers were given a medal! When i looked at it, i felt a surged of emotion. I had finished a 5km run and proved to myself that i can do it! :D

I.am.proud.of.myself. :D

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Patience, My Dear Girl, Patience

2011-07-18T14:03:00.000+08:00

Patience is virtue.
We are always tested and challenged in many ways, everyday without fail.
Sometimes we just feel like giving up.
Why?
We ask.

As I grow older, I think I lost my patience somewhere along the road.
This is too much! why are they doing this to me?why cant I just get what I want?
why is it so hard to achieve my dreams? Why is this happening to me?
There's just too many WHYs in my life.

And then, a few days ago, it struck me like a lightning.
Patience, my dear girl, patience.

Patience is not about waiting, but keeping the good attitude while waiting.
What have I been doing while waiting?
I have been questioning too many things, which I myself am shameful for.

Not everything that we want will be good for us,
and not everything that we don't, is not good for us.
Only He knows best.

And then I told myself,
Patience, my dear girl, be patient.

Good things will come to those who wait. :)

Focus. Live a Positive Life.

2011-06-29T13:50:00.000+08:00

I used to refuse to grow up. Believe it or not, I always had this idea that having to grow up and be an adult is no fun. The money matters, the relationship woes, the family issues, career progress yada yada yada..You get the drift.

We simply cant deny the wonders of being a kid. The carefree nature as if all is rainbows and sunshine. It is not surprising that I tried to hold on to being a kid, a student. Oh! spare me the headache, I would say.

But soon, especially after I graduated, I had no choice. Like it or not, to be an adult and to think like one is all I have and being the eldest child in the family does not help either. Well, I dont have to wait long, all the 'adult trouble' sure stormed in fast and furious.

I thought I could get away with it by ignoring, keeping to a nonchalant attitude but it all kept coming. Imagine a huge balloon looming towards your face, it gets bigger and bigger just waiting to burst in your face. And when it happens, OUCH!

I learn to deal with 'Adult issue' one by one, take one step at a time. Boy, being an adult sure is challenging. No one decision in life is easy peasy.

One of the major decision I had to make was to plan for my own family. The decision making was mutual between hubby and me. All we wanted was for the best. Where family planning is concerned, most people still think it is not advisable especially for a first child. If you fail to plan, you plan to fail. My stand is to each his own. We plan what is best for us, rezeki is still from Allah. Now that we are more stable financially, we pray and hope for the best.

Despite the difficult decision making, being an adult is not all that bad. After all, we decide how we want to perceive life as an adult. Now that I am an adult, I choose to see things positive. My mantra, 'Focus. Live a Positive Life'

Get It Right

2011-06-20T14:05:00.000+08:00

What have I done? I wish I could run
Away from this ship goin' under
Just tryin' to help, hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow

But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight

Can I start again with my faith shaken?
'Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I'll get through this

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow

But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right

So I throw up my fist
Throw a punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah, I'll send down a wish
Yeah, I'll send up a prayer
And finally, someone will see
How much I care!

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow

But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight

The Pink S is MINE!

2011-06-19T14:50:00.003+08:00

This might be a bit belated.

I.Am.an.owner.to.a.spanking.NEW.Sony Vaio Notebook! (FINALLY!)
and it is PINK! yay!

This is a dream come true. Always wanted a Sony Vaio since Uni days. But the price was a turn off when there was so many other choices.

But still, the Vaio was my secret dream. I told myself one day I'll buy one for myself.

Then last weekend during the IT show, we went to look at the price, and the deal was quite good. But I thought, nah, maybe next time.

But suddenly hubby asked me whether I want it. o_O
like really? seriously?

I was hesitant, kesian pulak nk suruh hubby belikan.

But since it was a great deal, hubby bought the Sony Vaio for me!

*nangis sambil tarik rambut*

Betul ke ni????

and soooo, the pink Sony Vaio S series became mine. :)

Thank you Thank you Thank you sayang!

I wuv you very much! :) MMMUACKS! :)

For The Daddies

2011-06-19T13:30:00.017+08:00

It is Father's Day!

This day is for the man whom I call, Bapak.

Thank you bapak for being there for us when we we're young and naive
and have so much to learn in our younger years.

Thank you bapak for being the funny guy
(although sometimes its just like "ape je!" :p).

His favourite quotes:
1) Halal Mutagak, Halal Mutagih
Haram bagi tak tak hendak, halal bagi yg ketagih.
2) Pu Pakal Pu Pintu
Budak nakal memang gitu.

Ape je! kan? LOL!

Thank you bapak for paying for my Uni studies, I know how hard it was those days and I will NEVER EVER forget that. :')

Thank you bapak for marrying me off to a wonderful man.

Words can never be enough to describe how thankful I am to have you as my bapak. :)

Another man who deserves a big Thank You is my daddy-in-law, Abah.

I have such high respect for this man. Witnessing him received his Masters Degree, plus being the best student in his faculty, inspired me to never stop studying.

Thank you abah for accepting me as your daughter-in-law.
Thank you for all the hardship and sacrifices you made for your son, my husband, to make him into the wonderful and responsible man he is now. :')

(Upin&Ipin's elder brother, meet, Apin :p)

I am sure, one day, he too will be a great father like you. I'Allah Amin. :)

And to all the fathers out there,
Happy Daddy's Day!

Salute!

Kerana Nur Adalah Yang Terindah

2011-05-27T16:21:00.006+08:00

"...Kerana Nur adalah yang terindah buat abang."

Yes, I've watched Nurkasih The Movie and the above quote is one of my fav. Im just going to add some more excitement to those who is yet to watch the movie. ;)

Okay, review time (trying to be as objective as possible okay) :)

Let's begin with the negatives first.

*The CGI effect in the movie could've have been better. I think Khabir Bhatia should hire KRU ppl to help with that. When the part of the movie was so heart-wrenching, where Adam was looking for Nur after their Train accident, I could not help but to feel slightly uneasy at the obviously unreal CGI effects. It was a distraction.

My hubby was laughing when he saw the man on fire. All sad and worried emotions I had, GONE!

*The scenes was a bit jumpy. It was here and there. One had to really focus on the storyline in order not to be lost in the whole story. For people who didnt watch the drama on TV and decided to watch the movie, it will take a while for you to get it.

Now, the good parts.

*I like how the story was unpredictable. It was unpredictable in a good way. There were parts where I gasp and gasp because I was shocked and there were also parts where I was angry and scolded the character (not too loud of course ;))

Also, there were some element of surprise at the end of the movie. You need to watch it to find out..;) I didnt expect the ending to be that way. But it was good for me.

*The movie provides a sense of closure for all Nurkasih fans. We can finally stop watching in peace; without worrying why is it like that and what is going to happen next, which brings me to my conclusion from watching the movie.

*Emotions. Seriously, Nurkasih really played with my emotions. When it is sad, IT IS sad. When it is sweet, IT IS sweet; the can-get-diabetes kinda sweet!. When it is touching, IT IS SUPER touching; the one that makes you feel like going to the screen and hug the screen thinking that you are hugging the character, for making you feel SO touched! I know I felt that way. I'll give you a clue to which part I felt touched: THE RING PART. ;)

What I conclude from the movie:
- Love is such a pure thing
- To love does not mean to own
- Rezeki is everywhere
- Jordan is gorgeous
- You can cheat death so many times but you WILL have to face death eventually. "Kullu Nafsin Za iqatul Maut"
- Never give up.

Perfect on-screen couple! I personally think Remy Ishak is the next Rosyam Nor. kehkehkeh..

The adorable kids! Clever acting and Cute Cute Cute!

So for my GFs who, like me, is a fan of Nurkasih, GO and watch it! Get a sense of closure..:)

Side note to my Hubby:
I know you're not into Nurkasih and not a fan of going into JB especially because of a movie like Nurkasih. But Thank you so much for bringing me there because I wanted to watch it so bad!
Caaaaaaaaaaaaaayang Awak! :)

Kenapa?

2011-03-31T10:19:00.002+08:00

Kenapa aku tak berani kata "No!' pada orang lain,
Kenapa aku selalu biar orang lain gunakan aku,
Kenapa aku ini lemah sangat,
Kenapa aku takut untuk bersuara,

Kenapa aku selalu biar diri dipijak orang,
Kenapa aku tak berani pertahankan hak aku,
Kenapa aku selalu biar diri merana asal orang lain bahagia,

Kenapa aku tak reti marah orang,
Kenapa aku cuma tahu menangis,
Kenapa aku hanya merungut dibelakang dan tidak berdepan,

Kenapa Khasanah??

Aku tak ada keberanian,
Iya, Itu dia..
Aku tak tahu macam mana nak jadi orang yang berani,
Sebab itu aku tak bahagia..

Solat is Yoga

2011-03-15T17:21:00.001+08:00

Solat is Yoga.
Solat is relaxing.
Solat is a break.
Solat is peace.

Reminder to myself.

You May Call Me Fatty

2011-03-10T14:00:00.008+08:00

Been thinking about my fluctuating weight, AGAIN.
Hormones, seriously, are my worst enemy.

How can one's hormones be so imbalanced?
Being unpredictably moody is one thing,
the weight issue? It's another thing!

I realised that most of my old clothes are much more snug now.
*GASP!*
How sad right?

Kemanalah perginya motivasi diri saya ni ye....
Tolonglah K*hasanah, jangan malas,
tetapkan iman dan pergi Jogging!
*pok dia baru tau*

Bila tgk makanan, tetbe jadi nafsu amarah..
howww?
At first, berkata dalam hati "ish! taknak makan lah keropok tu, gemuk nanti..tadi baru je makan nasi.."
Suddenly,
I swear I saw the keropok waving at me, slowly hypnotising me to eat!
Howw? Howww?

I shouldnt have to resort to telling myself that I hate food kan?
erk...
But I LOVE fooood!

Okay, from now on,
I promise myself to jog everyday after work, tk kiralah pukul berapa pun,
I have to jog at least half an hour..
If not, I cannot go home...

err...boleh ke?
*cisss berdebah kau wahai low self-confidence!*

Tidak! aku harus bisa menepis si low self-confidence berdebah itu!
*hiyak dush!*

Point is,
I DO NOT HAVE A CHOICE.

I REFUSE TO WEAR A SIZE M or worst, L. *GASP!*

I MUST JOG.

So when does this resolution starts?
Today?
Maybe tomorrow...or better next week?

NO K*hasanah!
It starts TODAY.

P/S: You people become by witness. If I fail, you may call me FATTY, NOT! :p

Marry Me, Mary

2011-03-09T17:46:00.004+08:00

Olla!

Just a quick post.
Watched 'Marry Me Mary' -Korean drama and I dont quite like the actor at first
BUT!

I love this part where the guy said the girl's name(which is Mary) sounds like a dog's name.

Immediately he barked, "mong! mong!" and smiled..

(if the image does not gif, please click to see)

So sweet! (the irony! lol!)

...aaaaand I became a fan!

kwang3.....

Bonus!! yay!

2011-01-13T21:11:00.018+08:00

Hows everyone doing?

Things have been pretty hectic lately.
I've been gaining weight like nobody's business!
Damn those hormones!
Sometimes it made me feel depress,
Sort of not wanting to meet and talk to people,
just because I feel like im so ugly and disgusting..
I really really wish this hormones will go away FAST!

Been trying to eating healthy, not all the time though..
Im trying..

See the stuff I've eaten?
That wholemeal bread is bleagh!
I prefer Sunshine to Gardenia ANYTIME!
The salad though, was nice...:)
I tried to make my own breaded chicken salad ala Swensen's..:)

Enough about food.

I told my husband that I wanted to go to the MBS Skypark on my Birthday..
I thought It would be romantic and all..*dreamy*
Particularly because it will be my FIRST time going up there and on my Birthday!

However,
We went there sooner than expected..
We went there on my MIL's birthday instead, because everyone wanted to..

So now,
I do not want to go there on my birthday coz it wont be special anymore..
sob sob..

Where else can I go to...?
It's too soon to be going there again..isnt it?

*sigh*

I know Fairmont Hotel's restaurant is now Halal..
*hint to Hubby* :))

I know the above picture is random. But aint the SMURF cute?
I am soooo into Smurf!
They're tiny, blue aaaaaand CUTE! ;)

That Aside,
Eversince I started working at S*P*H,
I think I've lost around 20 pens!
Ridiculous kaaaan....

So annoying to have to go to the stationery cupboard and keep taking pens..

I decided to label the pens with my name on it.
Now,
If anybody accidentally(husnu zhan) took it,
RETURN IT TO ME, ok...*buat muka comel giller takle angkat*

To end this post on a cheerful note:
I will be receiving a bonus and a pay increment!

I've waited 3 working years to get these benefits.
Ever since I started work in 2007, I've never even once get a taste of a 13 month pay, let alone a bonus or pay increment..(they can even toy with my basic salary..hmph!)

So this year is a blessing..
Im thankful to Allah for his 'rezeki'
Alhamdulillah..:)

p/s: I want to change my blog layout, but so sian ah to sit in the IT room and do..

of the weekend and some random ramblings

2010-12-20T13:59:00.011+08:00

Its totally a mundane Monday for me..
Its low month at work and low month means less work or at times almost no work..
teehee..

Not that Im complaining about it, coz when its high month, I can go beserk with deadlines!
Its just that, when there's no work I tend to get very VERY sleepy..
Its embarrasing when I 'head-banging' in front of the computer!
Paisey!
And you know when that happens,
you just cant seem to be able to control yourself?
Ngantuknya mintak ampuun....Macam tak tidur 3 bulan..kehkehkeh..

Anyways,
Weekend was good..
For a start, I was loving my outfit..LOVE Grey!

It was my mommy's birthday on the 17th so we all went out for lunch..
and then my dad said he wanted to buy PS3 and Guitar Hero for Fitri.
So we ALL went to S*im L*im..

After much negotiation, we got a pretty good bargain and since hubby have been wanting a PS3 and I did say I was buying it for him on his birthday (I changed my mind and got him a GPS instead)
I bought one PS3 for him..
Boy! was he happy..

Main tak ingat dunia :p

Its going to be another public holiday this weekend,
Looking forward to the half day work next Friday!
Weee~~~
We're going to paaaartaaay~~
(party lah sgt!)

'til then,
Toodles lovelies!

Its a Holiday

2010-12-17T13:51:00.003+08:00

Arent holidays supposed to make us feel relaxed and rejuvenated?
yes? no?
Its both yes and no, I think.

I went to Penang and Melaka with my Husband and family.
Wont say it was that great though..
I thought it was urm...okay..fine..

Penang makes me want to cry because of the traffic..
it was craaaaaazyyyyyy~~~~
To go to a 5-10 mins destination,
would take us half an hour or MORE!
and I thought KL was bad. :s

Personally,
I love Love LOVE the seafood at Hammers Bay, Bayan Lepas.
It was one of THE best seafood I've ever tasted.
I would recommend anybody to go there and try!
That was the highlight of the whole trip for me.

Melaka was much better.
Better hotel
Better TRAFFIC

The trishaw ride was fun..
hehe..last time I rode on a trishaw was back in 1996/1997
when I followed my dad and Nyai to her village in Indonesia..

Upon reaching Singapore, I could feel my body asking for mercy..
I was ~~jet-lagged~~ car-lagged..
All I wanted to do was sleep for 24hours straight!

Next holiday destination will be just me and my hubby!
Batam.
A short getaway, to chill..
February come fast will ya!

Our 1st

2010-12-08T13:25:00.009+08:00

I still remember a few years ago,
when he said we shall get married.
My heart fluttered!
My head dizzy with little birdies flying around it!
;)

When we were courting,
I knew there and then that he was THE man I wanted my future husband to be like..
His seriousness when planning for our future,
His caring nature,
He is appreciative,
He is one with a BIG sense of Humour (love it when he makes me laugh)
and He's got goals in life (whether or not it is achieved, a man must have a goal in life).

When we started planning to get married,
things were not easy,
Slowly but surely..........................
5 Dec 2009
We became Mr and Mrs <3

Ever since that day,
every single day I woke up seeing my husband next to me
and thanked Allah for Blessing me with such a good man to lead me and our small family..

And now,
12 months later
we celebrated our 1st anniversary..:)

1st,
is still baby steps to the future...into the unknown..
1st,
is still very new..
1st,
is the start to many more lovely years together...

To my prince charming,
I Love You
Thank you for being the rainbow in my life :)

Childhood heaven

2010-11-22T13:53:00.004+08:00

Weekend was pretty much a laze-around-in-my-jammies kind

Which I looked forward to.

Things were tough and stressful at work, of late.
Madness everywhere,
mind-blowing crisis,
deadlines, urgh! tell me about it!

All that put together with some hormonal imbalances,
voila!
You get a crybaby..

:p

Therefore, I was GLAD for the chillaxing weekend..
Now, back at work, slow start but steady increase on productivity level.
Went to lunch with N*urin and decided to walk into 'childhood heaven'.

Biscuits!
You name it, whatever biscuits you've ever had when you were a child,
it's there! (and CHEAP too!)

I immediately thought of hubby the moment I stepped into the shop.
If only he was there,
I think he'd buy the whole shop.
LOL! =)

Called him,
and the man said he wanted these 2 biscuits,

Well,
He wanted it, He got it!

Next time, Im gonna buy more and give some to my parents and niece and nephews.
O-oh~~
Mcm makcik makcik lah.. :p

The True Meaning of Sacrifice

2010-11-18T13:26:00.002+08:00

It was 'Eidul Adha yesterday.
I hope my muslim brothers and sisters had a wonderful and meaningful 'eid.

As for me,
I have never thought much about 'Eidul Adha.
I know the history behind it and I know every 'eid, mosques here will have sheeps lining up for Qurban.
Sacrifice in the name of Allah. That, I know for sure.

This year,
It was different. It was first 'Eidul Adha as a wife.
I began to see the true meaning of sacrifice.
After marriage, I began to see how much sacrifices one has to make in the name of Love.
Love to our other half, Love to our own selves and most importantly Love to Allah..

I started the day yesterday feeling confused and sad.
I was sad because of so many things.
Work, Energy, Family, Time.

For someone who's like me,
realising all this,
I felt overwhelmed with emotions, just thinking about it.
There's many other things in life that involves sacrifice, be it a small one or a big one.
It is not easy.

Now I know why Allah promises Heaven for a wife who obeys her husband.

I pray that I will be given the strength to better myself for the responsibilities bestowed upon me as a vicegerent, a wife, a daughter, an employee and a mother(in future), I'Allah..

Amin.

Little things go a long way

2010-11-01T19:53:00.003+08:00

Been pondering on this matter due to the recent issues that is happening around me.

Relationship needs a lot of efforts to make it work.
I believe that and I held it strong in my heart.

Marriage is not just for a day.
Its for life.
It is not easy to live with someone for 40, 50 or even 60 years down the road without feeling a tinge of resentment or boredom towards them.
Really, it is not easy.
Which is why we heard of couples arguing, at times over petty matters.
Couples married for 20-30 years can still sought divorce, it shows that marriage is not an easy task.

That is why I believe strongly in putting a lot of effort to make it work.
But of course it shouldnt be a one-sided effort either.

Efforts does not neccessarily mean extravagance. One does not have to spend thousands of dollars just to make the other half happy. Once in a while, maybe..
If its done almost all the time, trust me, you cannot survive..

Effort here means, little things in life that is almost always taken advantage of, things that we forget.
Like smiling. Smiling is infectious, ya know..
or just giving a peck on their cheeks or lips every now and then..
or even going the extra mile as doing the household chores together..
It does not need big money to put happiness in one's life (although money still is important).
You just need a little bit of creativity!

Communication skills can go a long way in sustaining a relationship. Though, Im not the most excellent communicator. Im still learning. A step at a time. Respect is salient. No respect given is no respect gained. Understanding and honesty must be mutual.

There's just so many things we can do together with our bestfriend (im using the term best friend as our partner is our bestfriend) to make the rocky road ahead feels easier to go through.

Im not saying this as if Im some kind of a relationship expert. I am still new in marriage life. I am still learning. We never stop learning. Everyday is a new learning day.

I am writing this as a reminder to myself and to share it with anyone who read my blog, if there's any at all.

Thats all for now.
Toodles!

Puzzling Me

2010-10-29T13:54:00.002+08:00

Doesnt it amaze you that at times you just cannot understand yourself?
It does for me.

The things that I want, the way that I behave and feel
are at times puzzling..

I may want one thing, and within minutes or even seconds,
I may not want it at all..

I may be laughing and talking non-stop
and out of the blue, I will cry..I might even just shut myself from the outside world..

I may feel happy or just normal and contented,
the next minute I will feel hatred towards a lot of things..
really, like hate hate..

Now, can you explain that to yours truly?

Say it LOUD AND CLEAR!

2010-10-18T13:45:00.002+08:00

Why is Monday always associated with the colour blue?

Monday Blues.
This thing is psychological..
Truth is, nothing is wrong with Monday..
Its us..

Yes,
including me..
I am guilty of faulting Monday for all nonsense that happen throughout the day..
oops!

I am putting this in words so that I can read back
and laugh at myself for being so silly..

I am not feeling good..
Those upbeat feeling..adrenalin rush..the force that comes from within that makes me just want to go, go and keep going..
I need those feeling...

So come on people!
Gimme some love...
Give yourselves some love...

Stand up and say "I am HAPPY"
Say it LOUD!
Say it LOUD AND CLEAR!
Say it until you feel it in you..:)

Hope I've helped brighten up your Monday! ;)

P/S: Dear...come let go swimming today...=)

2010-10-14T14:05:00.008+08:00

13th October 2010
My Prince Charming turned 27

Hope you had a great time yesterday
I Love You Honey :)

Holloween Scare-fari!

2010-09-30T13:54:00.003+08:00

Im Excited!
Hubby's bringing me here this weekend.

Im scared but excited.
The excitement is making me wish for Saturday to come fast.
Im Scared, Curious and Excited!

What else can I say?
Im Excited!
haha!

Im Just Quiet

2010-09-30T13:38:00.003+08:00

Who am I?
What is my personality?

I've been questioned endlessly nowadays about the way I behave..
They're concerned whether Im feeling lonely or left out..

Well,
truth is,
That is me..
I am naturally a quiet person..
I dont just talk to people..
I am reserve and withdrawn, especially when I meet new people..
I dont initiate conversation..
I talk when people talk to me..
I keep to myself most of the time..
Im not the funny girl among my friends..

I am mostly an observer and a listener..
I dont like to complain much..
I dont comment much on things..
I dont go around expressing my feelings loudly..
That is why I have my blog and twitter account..

Only very few people have seen the crazy side of me..
Very few..

Dont feel bad because I am quiet
because I like it that way..

Im quiet..Just quiet..

I was at peace with myself,
until now...
These talk about me being too quiet
is making me feel confused about myself..

I know I cant go on being quiet now..
I have to open up more..
Be known and exposed..
extroverted..funny..expressive..
so they said...

I'll try..

Im quiet..Just quiet..

God help ease my path..
Amiin..

Eat.Pray.Love

2010-09-27T14:26:00.004+08:00

I am looking for this book.

Libraries are taking too long for me to wait.

Anybody wants to borrow or GIVE it to me..;)

hehe...

I want to read this badly.

So malas to go Borders.

If I go I'll end up buying not one but a few more books.

How??

Navigating

2010-09-27T13:51:00.004+08:00

Prince Charming's birthday is coming soon.
As usual, I have been thinking of what to get him since his last birthday.
Im very bad in terms of getting gifts for a boys/men.
Also, Im not very good with surprises, more often than not, my surprise plan got busted wayyy before it's supposed to.

*sigh*

So I decided to go frank.
I told dear whatever I plan to give him.
heh.

This year, there were 2 prospective gifts.
Its either a PS3 or a GPS.

PS3 - I know he will love it, but its just a gift for his leisure. (also, when he started playing games, I might as well speak to the four walls...:p)
GPS- I knew this was a better idea. Its such a practical gift, since we are almost always on the road, with our plans to go Malaysia on a regular basis.

I did my homework and fell in love with Garmin Nuvi 3790. What makes me fell even deeper was the fact that its got bluetooth speaker for phone calls on the go!

Dear always have trouble with the handphone speakers and it was a hassle to put on an earpiece while driving. He hates it to the core.

The Garmin Nuvi 3790 also has got a voice activation control. It instantly recognises your command. For example:

There will be a menu of things for you to choose from. Let say you want the gps to start navigating and directing you to your home. We set our home to the 'Favourite list'

Dear said: Favourite.
GPS prompted: a list of favourite places.
Dear said: Home.
GPS prompted: Do you want to navigate now?
Dear said: Yes.

..and the gps starts to navigate to Punggol, our Home! how cool!

We tested this yesterday and were clapping our hands in awe. haha!

The device to me is really good. And Garmin GPS system is known internationally. So yah, I guess that was a good buy.

Dear looks happy with it. I hope that it is really useful for him. :)

So people, if anyone is looking for a good GPS devise, I personally think that the Garmin Nuvi 3790 is a good buy.

Hope I can put up a video of how good the navigation via voice command is.

As for now,
toodles darls!

Earning IT

2010-09-21T12:34:00.002+08:00

Its almost coming to an end..
In a week's time, my probation will end..
I am not feeling great, I am worried..
Due to the incident with my previous job,
I just cannot stop worrying..

I have been learning a lot and worked hard to make sure
I earn my confirmation letter here..

I tried,
All that is left for me to do is pray..

Allah knows best,
So Im just trying my best not to focus too much on worrying..
Instead, I should make the most out of my last 7 days of probation..
If I get the letter, I earned it with Allah's will..Alhamdulillah..
If I dont, at least I have learnt a lot and now better understands the process
to a good looking and readable magazine, and that its time to move on..
(although I fret moving on, if this happens, coz moving on is HARD)

I am at work now,
it is lunch time, I am fasting (puasa 6)
Missed the 6 fasting days last year,
determined to get it this year, hopefully..

I am a weak human being,
Always forgetting to thank Allah for all the beautiful and wonderful things he gave in life..
Must be the laziness in me..Thus, I told myself I must try to fast for these 6 days, at least..
And then, comes the other 11 days pay back fasting time!

If I can fast for 30 days (actually 19 minus the 11),
the whats 11 days, right??
You can do it Khasanah!
Chaiyok!

hmm..

Thats all for now,
Toodles darls!

'Eid Mubarak

2010-09-15T13:27:00.003+08:00

Hello dearies..

Its almost a week of 'Eid.

Time flies..a lot have changed..

Every single day is a new day,

to learn, to forgive and to love..

On this joyous occasion, blessed month,

My husband and I would like to wish all Muslims out there

a Happy 'Eid..

'Eid Mubarak,

Kullu 'am wa antum Bikhair..:)

Back To My Roots

2010-09-15T13:23:00.004+08:00

I am feeling so guilty for ditching this dearest space of mine.
I thought of blogging via tumblr, created an acct,
BUT nothing can ever be the same as this secretdoor.

I have a sentimental feeling towards ither.
I put in so much effort to make her pretty and very much personalised and then I go and ditch her.
I am so so bad.

No matter what happen, no matter how long it will be,
this secretdoor will always be a place where I will return to.

So friends,
you can always find me here. :)

I love YOU secretdoor. <3

Today

2010-05-31T12:45:00.001+08:00

Today,
I woke up at 4am to cook lunch for my dear husband..

Today,
Is the day my husband is unwell..

Today,
Is the day my mind is TOTALLY absent from my body..

Today,
Is the day my husband called me at 11am+ realising I did not switch
off the fire from the stove!!!! :s (luckily, the fire is a small one,
and the food is still edible and warm)

Today,
I feel guilty as hell because of what happened..(from 5am all the way
til 11am+?? really? Khasanah??)

Today,
I almost cause a colleague to scream for my absent mindedness..

Today,
I had to stand outside the door and wait for somebody to open it for
me because i forgot to bring my staff pass..

Today,
I feel like going somewhere and scream, "WHAT THE HELL HAS GOTTEN INTO
YOU KHASANAH!"

So that's my Today for you..

Sent from my iPhone

Sneaking Spicy Umian

2010-05-07T12:23:00.001+08:00

I miss eating my fav Banquet Spicy Umian! (read: with lotsa cili padi!)

I use to eat it EVERYDAY after work.

Still remember how I used to go Banquet and tapau-ed my Umian. I would
sneak it into my room because i didnt want to share (yes, im selfish
like that when it comes to this fav food of mine :p), and then go to
the kitchen to take a big bowl, a spoon and fork and happily eat the
heavenly Spicy Umian while watching my fav chinese drama on channel 8.
So shiok! ;)

ALL these in my room. Aaah~~ the perks of having your own room!

The best thing is, nobody in my family knew I did all that everyday
after work..hehehe..

Maybe they were thinking that I must be very tired at work and badly
needed a rest..;)

Now, I cant do that anymore because I share a room with my hubby. It
would be a funny sight if I sneak Spicy Umian in our room, and if my
hubby walk in..kantoi lah beb! Later, he also want, how? Hahaha...:p

I am so craving for it now..I dont mind eating it everyday again...and
of course with lotsa cili padi! :)

Oh my Spicy Umian~~ :)

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Words are not enough

2010-04-05T18:52:00.001+08:00

Today, was my first day at work..
A new day, a new job and a brand new age for me...

I was a little intimidated with the whole place..everything seemed so
much bigger.. The place, the workload, the number of people..

After a while of orientation by my seniors, thank God I felt relaxed
and was able to see the bigger picture..

The seniors were very friendly and helpful..

Initially, i had my worries about my prayer time at work..i still
remember when i had to pray at staircase landings before..

So i decided to ask a muslim colleague..and to my surprise, he said
there's a musolla dedicated for muslim employees..i wanted to cry out
of joy there and then...

First, God answered my prayers and gave me the job i dreamed of..and
then, he provided prayer room..so that i should always remember His
gift and be thankful of it...

What added on to my joy is that there is a shuttle bus to and from the
building to Alj MRT and Potong Pasir NEL..so its very convenient..

I am very very thankful to Allah, that words alone cannot describe my
sense of gratitute..

This is the Best birthday present that Allah Almighty bestowed upon me..

Alhamdulillah..Alhamdulillah..Alhamdulillah...

Shall update again later lovelies, im off for my birthday dinner!

Toodles!

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New life

2010-03-30T17:51:00.001+08:00

I have got a job.

You can call it a dream job.

Im just wondering what will my first day be like..
Im excited at the same time nervous..
Its gonna be my first time working in a 'real' organisation..

Never been in one before..
I am tired of looking for a new job everytime..

I just want to do my job well and get what i am supposed to get in due
time..

I really do not want to feel cheated again...

Last Friday was such a big blow to me..didnt expect things to turn out
like that..

Whatever it is, i am moving on..

Here's to a better life ahead,
CHEERS!

Alhamdulillah..:)

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the ones I will miss

2010-03-26T14:42:00.009+08:00

When one leaves a work place for good,

there will definitely be something that one will miss about it.

In my case,

I will miss my 2 sweetest colleagues..

Ever since I graduated,

They are the FIRST female colleagues I've ever had..

People say female colleagues can be very bitchy at times..

But thats not the case for these 2 girls..

When times are bad in the office and when things get crappy,

They brighten up my day..

Hello everybody,

Meet Yatee and Junn..

Junn was a writer in the company..

She made my days in the office brighter with her laughter..

LOUD laughter and infectious too..:)

She loves Belle from Beauty and the Beast,

and she often spilled coffee on the carpet, on her dress, on the table, anywhere..

hihihi...;)

Yatee is the designer..

She is my Ice cream buddy..

when we feel like indulging in a sinfully delicious rich ice cream after a full meal,

we will go to the ice cream cafe downstairs..

She's also my 'bekal' partner..

Most of the time she brought lunch from home,

now that Im leaving, her new partner will be the new guy in the block, Wady..

hihihi...

When these 2 ladies are put together in one office,

they instantly brightens up everyone's day..

They are also 2 of the most generous people

I've known..

Sometimes when I reach office in the morning,

there will be chocolates, curry puffs and lots of other goodies on my table..

Memang rezeki melimpah..

May Allah bless them with more rezeki always..

Amiin..:)

Thats why I said,

I will definitely miss them both!

Eager to scream

2010-03-26T08:53:00.007+08:00

Oh yeah...

Today's the day..My last day with this company..

Despite the downside of my experiences here, I cannot deny the fact that I had my fair share of good times too..

The highlight of it all, was when I finally get to meet CT!

Now, its time to close one chapter and open a new one..

I pray that this new chapter will be a better one and there will be no scary episodes in it..

Please....

I must also remember my promises to Him Almighty..

For a last day,

I am VERY early for work..

I have organised every files and folders so that it is easy for my replacement later..

(am I good or whaaat??)

and,

I really cant wait for this day to end...!

Eager to scream "IM FREE!!" at 6 o' clock today..

P/S: feeling slightly down...hmm..

P/s/s: my sweet colleague just gave me my FAV choc bars! nak cry leh..huhu..

What A Monday

2010-03-15T15:36:00.002+08:00

What a Monday!

First,

I got busted for being late to work..

All due to some "unforeseen" circumstances..:p

Im so going to go to work early tomorrow..

And then, another client postponed their ad,

hence, not helping my already little revenue...:s

Yeah,

I think that it is a sign for me to leave..

I've got 11 or 12 more days before I say goodbye..

I'd like to appreciate every last moments I have here..

The good ones that is..

Cant wait for a new life..=)

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah jalan hambaMu ini..

Sesungguhnya Engkaulah Maha Mendengar lagi Maha Memahami..

Amiin..

Once in a lifetime

2010-03-11T13:58:00.004+08:00

Today, I just want to remember the best thing that happened recently,

that made me feel over the moon...

THE day I met my idol,

D*ato' S*iti N*ur H*aliza..

Met her at the R*oyal P*laza On S*cotts Hotel..

It was the Press Conference for S*uria Elektra..

God knows how I felt at that point of time...

hihi..

let the pictures do the talking aite? ;)

I'll remember this, forever..=)

DREAMS can wait long long (NOT!)

2010-03-08T11:19:00.002+08:00

"sometimes its not that we want to be choosy, but we have important things to factor in thus we request a certain expectation..but people dont know that..and when we give in and follow suit, we face with hardship in life..who wants hardship? nobody..confuse soul"

That, is my current FB status. I am in a state of confusion.

I might be jobless starting April.

I've been looking around for a new job for so long..So so long..

All I wanted is for people to appreciate me..I work I commit..

but why did I always end up feeling cheated.

Who says $ is not important?

Dare you say that to my face and I'll knock you down with my smelly socks..

Without $ I can never achieve dreams..

Dreams of studying, dream of making my parents and parents in-law happy, dreams of making it big with my passion in photography, dreams of traveling to the places I dream of going before I die, dreams of having a child and to care and nurture him/her to the very best...

DREAMS...

How do we ever achieve them without $..?

I took my bachelors not without $ problems..

I troubled my parents (and aunt, God bless them all) enough to make sure I graduated..

All these is with a LOT of $..

Now, when I wanted to get a job, that pays well,

people just dont appreciate..

(dengar2 dulu belajar FREE)

They give a measly $ and demand that a 3 to 5 person tasks to be done in a day, by 1 person..

They can even toy around with my $, and claimed that the company is not making $..

hmm..

should that be the case?

Im getting more and more scared to get a new job because Im scared I might land one that is no different from the others..

really...

Now, I've 4 interviews..

1 shift work and 3 9to5..

I dont know whether to accept the shift job, should they offer me..

Time is the big factor..

the other 3, is normal working hours..

Should they accept me,

I pray I will get a $ that is reasonable..

If not, my DREAMS shall wait long long...

Test

2010-03-02T15:43:00.001+08:00

Test entry via mobile

Sent from my iPhone

That Precious Little Darling

2010-02-25T00:04:00.007+08:00

Visited bestie's crib today...
was so excited to see her newborn..

Nour Qasrina,
she's so precious..
those tiny little fingers melted my heart..
her adorable cheeks are just so kissable and munchable..

Bought her these little darlings..
am glad you liked it Su..=)

One day when Qasrina wears them,
take pictures and show me okay..=)

Here's one more for you people to boogle (read: baby+oogle) at..
teeheehee...;)

Good night Darls! =)

I SEE YOU IN COURT

2010-02-23T12:55:00.005+08:00

I really do not know how to describe what Im feeling right now..

Its been a crazy roller coaster ride with this issue..

He's THE photographer from hell!

Dont know whats up with him,

Is it so hard to just give me my wedding photos?

We didnt even bother him with all the editing, just a simple, "take pictures, give us the raw files. Thats all"

And that took him almost 3 months and counting..

I am clueless to whether I will ever get my photos back..

He turned the table, and blame me for this problem..

When clearly, he's the problematic one!

Whats his problem?

We dont know..He didnt tell us anything and kept playing with time..

Today we found out that he's going fishing!

fishing! can you comprehend that??

No time to give our wedding photos, but can still have fun and go fishing?

wth??

He is, my BIGGEST regret in life..seriously!

Im giving time until tomorrow, and if its still the same

thats IT, we're going the legal way..

Money, we can get back..

but memories of my solemnisation is priceless..

Im not going to get my $600 back, but Im asking for more..

To compensate the trauma that im going through because of this bugger!

I'll see you in court. LIAR!

Back to My Roots

2010-02-22T22:50:00.004+08:00

I AM BACK!!!

Gosh! I miss blogging from my Secretdoor!
New life new blog layout..hope you like it..=)

Been thinking of the new layout..and after much thought, this is it!

If you like it, do show some love at my tag board okay! ;)

so sorry to trouble you, but if you've linked me on your blogs with seventhepisode, do not delete it as that webbie is still active but for professional purposes..thats where the photography portfolios are..

for my blog, its here! at my dearest secretdoor.blogspot.com

till we meet again in the another entry,

Good night mua darlings!

Relink! Relink! Relink!

2009-02-19T10:33:00.004+08:00

~~Hello everybody!~~

~~I am no longer blogging here~~

~~I now blog from my own webbie..~~

~~So what are you waiting for!~~

~~Click on the link to go to my new home:~~

~~www.seventhepisode.com~~

~~Relink me! =)~~

Should I or Shouldnt I?

2009-01-28T00:59:00.003+08:00

Hey All..

I really could not sleep...
So many things on my mind...
But nowadays,
I feel I could not share things that is on my mind, here in this blog...

Everything in my mind lately
has been very private and complicated to talk about in this blog...

I have to find other alternatives,
I guess..

A thought came to my mind just a sec ago..
I'd like to close down this blog...

Shocking?
NO? hmm...

I dont know...

I just want to open a new chapter in my life..
Wish to forget everything in the past,
starting this very moment...
Just start everything with a clean slate...

I've penned every bitter sweet moments in my life,
here in this blog...
This blog is like my heart monologuing just about anything
that came across it...

But really,
Most of the things in my heart cant be typed out
and be shared with anybody anymore..

Therefore,
I thought,
should I or shouldnt I?

I'll give myself just one more day to think,
and we''ll see whats the outcome...

meanwhile,
Please excuse me
While I continue to think...

Excuse Me

2009-01-27T15:24:00.003+08:00

Please excuse me,
I NEED to scream.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ya Allah,
Forgive me for not being strong..

I need Your help,
Without which,
I am incapable..

Ada Masa Mata

2009-01-26T20:31:00.002+08:00

This new song by Siti Nurhaliza,
touched my heart..
The lyric is meaningful..

"kadang-kala orang menilai secara dasar..
dan lupa nak mengenali hati budi orang yang lain"

ADA MASA MASA
BUKAN DENGAN MATA
NAK MENILAI RUPA
MANA CANTIK, MOLEK DAN MANIS
TETAPI ITU KERJA HATI
MELIHAT DARI PEKERTI

ADA MASA MASA
DARI SISI SAMA
MASIH TETAP JUA
PANDANGAN BOLEH BERBEZA
ASALKAN SAJA DI HATI
SUDI CUBA MEMAHAMI

ADA MASA MATA
ADA SAHAJA
ADA YANG TIDAKLAH KENA
CEREWET MENCARI SEMPURNA
TERLUPA APA BERHARGA

ADA MASA MATA
ADA KETIKA
TAK TERLIHAT CELA
KERANA HATI SUDAH SUKA
SEPERTI JUGA AKU
BILA MENGENALI DIRIMU

JANGAN KUNCI
PINTU HATI
LEPAS PANDANG
SEBALIK DIRI
BILA INDAH TELAH PUDAR
ATAS APA KITA BERDIRI

I am FREAKIN ANGRY

2009-01-16T10:15:00.004+08:00

People who know me personally would say
Im not the angry type of person..
Even if Im a victim, I would still take my time to think,
whether I should scream at people that annoy me or not..

Most of the time,
I would just let it go and just imagine I scream vulgarities at them
and do something terrible to them in my head...

So far,
NO ONE in this world has caused me to want to do
other than that..

BUT!

This one particular person...
A girl...
Whom my mother fondly titled her as 'anjing gila'...

This girl has been in the picture ever since me and my brothers
were still in secondary school....
(that was around the year 2000)

The whole family tried not to judge her...
But time and time again,
she proved us wrong..

She caused our family to fall apart like crazy....
She bad-mouthed people..
She makes 'drama' just to get attention..
She shouted vulgarities at BOTH MY PARENTS!!!
She shouted vulgarities at HER PARENTS!!
She freakin' smokes ciggies..
She talks rude..
She influenced our in-laws by badmouthing us...
and many other BAD BAD characteristics....

(I tried to be kind and look at her good side instead, but she's gone too far that I simply CANNOT look at her good side!)

All that and she can freakin' ask people
'why people dont like me??'

Whatda??!!!!

Since she cant be changed and does not want to change,
My family just cant be bothered with her...

But yesterday,
She did it again..
she just somehow manage to irritate people with
her nonsensical behaviour!

She went to my aunt's house!

My aunt doesnt even know her!!!
and was startled to find a crying girl
at her doorstep...

Begging to meet my brother,
and saying she wants to kill herself..

You want to kill yourself,
so??
Go and freakin kill yourself lah..
None of our business!!

Good then!
That's one crazy person down..
The world does not need a person as outrageous as you!!

Its all for attention..
No one in the world who wants to kill themselves,
would tell people that...

they would just go and DIE lah!

STUPID!

My aunt had no choice but
to get her in the house and let her tell
her 'pitiful' story...

What a shameless person!
pegi rumah sedara mara orang
and then bukak pekong sendiri??

Dasar perempuan tak tau malu...!!

Even with all these nonsense,
I've always reserved a thought that maybe she's not that bad...

BUT!!!!!
until one particular Ramadhan..

She kept calling my house...
When I finally had enough,
I answered and told her that its maghrib, and
that as a girl she should be ashamed to be calling
and annoying people like that...

And guess what??

She smsed my dad
to freakin tell him 'to watch his daughter's mouth'!!!

Whatda!!!??
Who the hell is she to tell my dad to do that???
Mother Bugger you!!!

Now,
you tell me perempuan jenis apa tu??

is it her or is it just me??

From that day onwards,
I shut all reservations with regards to her good characters!

Any sane person in this world would NOT want to be friends
or entertain her nonsense...!

What can I say,
She's desperate!

I personally believe,
Akhlak dan peribadi seorang wanita tu harus dijaga..

I believe,
that a person CAN change from vices to virtues..
But,
Kalau rasa kesedaran, humility and malu tu dah takde langsung,
ginilah jadinya...

Sidenote: This is me being VERY ANGRY. The very seldom emotion has come.

Just an update after so long....

2009-01-07T10:30:00.003+08:00

I have been very lazy updating my blog.
Pardon me, but every single time I thought of blogging,
I felt like gagging..

OK, I'm just saying that just cause it rhymes..
DRAAAG!
:p

The house is still under renovation..
I'd say its 80% done...
Hope it'll be 90% by the end of this week
and all done up by end of next week..

Its really squeezing the juices out of me, this whole renovation thingy..
Every end of the day made me feel too tired to do anything else...
We are like tourist in our own country...
Staying from one hotel to another, one chalet to another and one relative to another...

The part I hated most is the packing and unpacking of stuff..
Mind you, I have my facial wash set, my tons of clothes (I work Mon to Sun),
my basic make-up necessities, my personal toiletries, etc...

I'm a girl, I have lots of stuff, you know...

So every time we move, I have to lug this hee-yuge luggage
around..

I just hope at the end of all this,
Its all worth it!

I can see ~~my house~~ my parents' house
starting to look all modern and chic...
ahakz...

and I requested my room to be painted in two shades of PINK!!
yay!

Oh btw,
I have officially closed my friendster account!

I've been meaning to do it since many many moons ago...
I don't know what held me back...
But anyway, I did it!
and it felt good! =)

and oh,
A happy belated new year to all of you!

I refuse to have any resolutions..
Cause it all never really came true...

Im just going to focus on the plans I've already been working on for this year...

I pray it will all unfold smoothly..
Amiin...

Tata!

My Precious Blue Gem

2009-01-02T15:32:00.009+08:00

I've been very busy..
Juggling stuff here and there..

So busy I forgot what its like to jump for joy...

Until one day,

THIS!

caused a big fat chesire cat GRIN on my face!

A gift from Love..

A token that we're meant to be..

and that we are well on our journey

to become 'Mr. and Mrs.' soon, InsyaAllah, he said.

This precious Blue Gem,

I Love and care with all my heart..

Thank You Darling! =)

:(

2008-12-14T20:29:00.001+08:00

Emosi terusik.
Perasaan terguris.

Sedih sangat...:'(

It is my fault..
Im such a dumbass...

Im Sorry :'(

Crazy Ending And Beginning

2008-12-04T22:53:00.003+08:00

I forsee a CRAZY end to 2008 and beginning to 2009!

The whole house will be up for renovation..
And the whole process will last for almost TWO freakin month!

I cannot imagine my life staying in a house with DUSTs (lots of ém!)..

And there will be days where the family will be staying at a
country club (I think) for 3 days
just because the contractors are going to lay out some stuff on the
flooring and nobody should be around..

Im thinking maybe I should take leave from work during those few days..
so I can feeling-feeling tai-tai, you know...;)

But whatever it is,
I just want the days to past by FAST..
so we can all enjoy the 'new' house..

and sleep peacefully..

:)

Im out.

Tata!

Towards the SEVENs

2008-11-27T12:45:00.003+08:00

Oh Gosh!

I've abandoned my blog for quite sometime..
The problem is,
I am having the writer's block syndrome..
erkk..

Well,
For now, Im just working towards the SEVENs..
It is something significant for me..
Everything is 'scrimp and save' at the moment..
Just to make sure that the SEVENs will come true..=)

May Allah bestow His assistance upon me..

Amiin...

Show Me The Path

2008-11-19T10:58:00.004+08:00

Its like in sitting in a black box,
Four dark walls around me,
Nowhere else to go to..

Im still searching,
Im still thinking,
Im still confused..

I used to know,
But now I dont...

I dont think I can breathe,
Im stuck..

I want to get out,
I want to break free,

But where do I go?

Im scared I would make a wrong turn,
and never be able to get back to my comfort zone..

What if I fall?
I'd be alone..
Nobody would know the pain I'll feel..

Im scared....

Oh Lord,
Show me the light,
Show me the path I must walk on
to rediscover myself...

Oh no,
Oh no,
Where has my courage gone to?

NotTheBestOf Me

2008-11-09T20:33:00.003+08:00

Not in the best of mood..
Is it really this pressurising?
Is it really this crappy?
Is it really hot these days?
And why am I so thirsty since this morning?
Is facebook photo uploading giving me a headache?
Do I really have to go to work tomorrow?
Is my family really going to Kota Kinabalu WITHOUT me?
Am I really going to be all alone come next weekend?
Is there really going to be a measly bonus end of this year?
How come everybody irked me?
And why am I feeling angry, anxious, annoyed, sad and restless
all of a sudden??

I am anything but joyful...:(

Seriously,
2008 has been a hell of a year...

There's still a month and a half more to go...
I dont wish for anymore nonsense..

:(

I Paling-mesra-pelanggan But I still get Shit!

2008-11-04T11:41:00.004+08:00

Tiba-tiba hari ini perasaan hati saya rasa
macam nak sebut perkataan favorit ramai...

F***!

Boleh tak?

Saya tak suka minta duit..
Memang dari dulu saya tak suka meminta duit..
Sebab tu tak boleh jadi treasurer...
Kena tagih duit dari ahli kelab and so on..
Eeee..tak pandailah...

Tapi apakan daya,
Tugas saya memerlukan saya menagih duit dari
klien-klien....

Tagih bagai nak rak pun, belum tentu they will give us the cheque
in due time..

Sampai hilang sabar rasanya....
Si Pengurus dah sibuk tanya-tanya
"Have you called them?"

Dah. Dah.
Saya dah kol banyak kali,
saya rasa Im now the 'Most favourite person' bagi
klien-klien semua..

Hari ini,
Saya cuba kol lagi..
Walaupun rasa tension sebab nak kena minta duit..
(read: I dont like to ask for money)

Suara saya paling-mesra-pelanggan-dalam-dunia
masa kol mereka tadi...

Saya: Hi, Good Morning! This is Nurul, calling from C*ar B*uyer..
Pelanggan: Oh, hi... (tak mesra sungguh!)
Saya: Im calling regarding the overdue payments. How's the cheque?
has it been approved yet?
Pelanggan: (as always) No not yet.
Saya: I see..My record says the payment is over 90 days due..
Pelanggan: (sounded pissed!) I check, I call you later.. (TAK akan pernah kol balik)
Saya: Ok, Thank you.. Hope we would be able to get it by this week..
Pelanggan: yah yah..im busy..bye!
Saya: (-_-) Whatda!!!

Haiz...

This has been going on and on...
setiap kali saya kol,
KONFEM ada yang rude!

And almost all the klien memperlakukan saya sebegitu...
Sakitnya hati.........

kenapa mereka yang pissed?
Sepatutnya saya yang marah sebab klien tak bayar,
saya yang kena soal dengan boss...

Hello~
Bukan kena bayar pun untuk berbudi bahasa...

So how?
Boleh tak saya kata "F***!"??

Bengang!

Isnt She Precious

2008-11-01T08:47:00.002+08:00

People,

Say hello to.....

My little princess!!

Some of you thought I was going to adopt a real baby girl...
But sorry to dissappoint you...*wink*

hihihi....

Still thinking of a cute lil' name for it..

Wait for more news...........~~

:)

WantToAdopt

2008-10-29T10:46:00.003+08:00

Congratulations to FH for his license! :)
I knew you can do it..:)

Anyways,
I've been looking around to adopt a baby girl..
I've prepared little by little the play area and stuff..
Oh Boy oh boy!
Im excited!

;)

Tata!

Ice-Skating and a Famous Person

2008-10-12T13:07:00.006+08:00

Its a lazy Sunday..
I wish I could laze around till night time,
But I have to go to a wedding dinner tonight..

But anyway,
I had a wonderful Saturday!

First of all sorry to the babes,
I cant join them for their raya-ing...
I already made reservation and plans for yesterday
since a few weeks ago...

FH is going to be a year older this Monday,
Since its a working day,
I decided to celebrate earlier...

Made a lunch reservation at Grand Hyatt Hotel..
Reached there early...
Chill and cam-whore for a bit...=)

Haiz bilalah nak makan...

And then we had our lunch which was fine
(Read: fine-dining ;))

I didnt take photos of the food..
was starving, so I totally forgot...

Tummy filled,
we headed to Kallang Leisure Park
for Ice-Skating!!

That was my FIRST time...
Seriously I was nervous but excited to try..
It was cold,
but I was sweating like crazy....

I think it was my nerves..
hehe...

It was a good start...
Steady...steady...
and then, Bedebab!!
I fell....

Embarrasing?
YES!

But its was funny...
And that was the beginning of a series of falls...*shakes head*
Even after I got the hang of it,
I still fell a lot! *shakes head again*

Nevertheless,
It was super fun..

My skate figures..

Yay! I can skate now...=)

with Flow....

Me trying to catch up....erk...

Dear even joked:
"Sports ni lah baru tak kisah muhrim ke tak.."
Me:
"apsal pulak?"
Dear:
"sebab pakai gloves"
Me:
ROFL :p

In the end I didnt break any bones,
Good! ;)
It is now in our list of favourite pastime together..=)
And that was the end of our fun-filled day...=)

And then at night,
My brother called me
saying his friends-his band mates will be coming to our house for raya..

I waited and waited and waited,
and gave up...

I went to bed
only to be awakened by a knock on my door..

My bro and his friends were here already...
I said I cant be bothered....

But my mom came into my room and took my fan away..
so I couldnt sleep...
huhu..
I had to wake up no matter what..
hmph!

When I stepped into the living room,
I saw his friends,
one of them the famous AA...

Can you spot him?

Try again...Spot him...

Hopefully you guess right,
its A*liff A*ziz...

Because he came I have to wake up...
grr....:p

Nasib baik awak kelakar and tinggi dik.. kalau tak, akak tuang sirap merah kat baju putih awak tu... haha....

My mom was happy to entertain him and the other friends, though...
In my heart: "suka betul mak aku"
hihihi....

They came, eat and sing...
SING??
yup...penting eh..?? ahakz....

And then off they went...
Naik lori tau....ahakz....

Haiz...

And me,
happily got my fan back and off to lala land~~

End Note: Happy Birthday Dear...!! Hope you had a wonderful time too!
Kita Sayang Awak (^_^)

Tata!

Surreal Yesterday

2008-10-11T07:37:00.003+08:00

Yesterday felt surreal..
We've been waiting, for the day with much anticipation
that when it actually came,
we didn't know what we should do...

We looked around for a bit...
Browse and commented a lot...
Its hard to have two different opinions
and want the best choice for both
at the same time.....

We had to scrutinise every single detail....

And then,
THERE!

There was the perfect place
that met our expectation...

To satisfy our curiosity,
we went to check out the place...

Oh yes! It was love at first sight....
The size,
The community centre,
The market place,
The bustop,
The MRT,
The Mall,
The neighbour,
The Place itself is so welcoming....

Somehow,
It felt right.....

We were both at peace with the place,
we started to imagine what we could do to it...
Sprucing it up with this and that,
How we are going to go about going to work
and even
which room is for what....

That's how surreal it is,
yesterday......

And than we applied....

The number of many others like us
who applied was way too many....

5th November,
We are keeping our hopes up..
So that it will become ours,
One Day....

This,
Marks our journey to embark on the future....

IÁllah....
Amin....

All P*INC and Shiny

2008-10-09T09:28:00.005+08:00

Its been a week of Raya..
My only jalan-jalan was on the first day of 'eid
and the fourth day (that was only one house)..

Thats all..

When you're a working adult,
You dont really get the chance to go raya-ing
as much as you used to during school years...

Darn!

No wonder I got an instinct to not shop for raya this year..
ahakz....

Anyways,
After a hectic month in Ramadhan
helping out my mom with the cleaning and stuff-
tangan and kaki da macam orang keje kontrak-

So I finally get to do some manicure and pedicure!!

We went to P*INC at causeway point

Although Mary did hers a few days before,
I begged her to do it again...;)
maceh ye....

It was fun!
and I LOVE my shiny nails....
hehehe....

Premium pedicure..cost a bomb..
But it was really really good....
My feet were as soft as a baby's..

My nails all oiled...

Would love to do it again next month...=)

I heard about a book titled
"The Last Lecture"

I Googled it
and found it to be interesting....

So I ordered it from K*inokuniya...

Have not read it yet..
Still reading J*odi P*icoult's "Nineteen Minute"

Cant wait to finish it and move on to The Last Lecture...!

I had this weekend all planned...
But looks like there might be some changes...
Hoping that my plan remains as it is...

Tata!

My Mantra.

2008-10-05T22:29:00.002+08:00

Hey..
Before I go to bed
allow me to spill a few things thats been 'playing' around
in my mind...

When I was a little girl,
I thought life was easy...
Everything was a breeze....
Whenever I saw adults having to face with some sort of issues and problems,
I thought " hey! Its tough being an adult huh..Im lucky Im a kid"

I almost wished I dont have to grow up..

Now that Im all grown up,
I have no choice but to BE an adult...
Do those things adults do...

Albeit all the fun parts
i.e. falling in love, work and get money, etc,
*wink*

I have to admit its really really tough...
So many challenges to face
So many issues to brave through..
So many matters to think of...

Im actually in a midst of thinking and planning
for the future...

Sometimes when I imagined of all the good things coming,
I get all excited
but I shuddered too much at the thought of the more serious stuff
that all the good things doesnt seem to be appealing anymore....

Love.
Finances.
family.
career.
etc.
etc.

juggle.juggle.juggle.

Might be all beds of roses in the first few years...
Im not too worried about that..

I badly want to be sure that I will be able to juggle it well
after the beds of roses period........

Get what I mean?

I guess,
Its a team effort...

"seseorang itu harus mempunyai sikap 'kuasa' untuk melakukan sesuatu walaupun perkara itu kecil" - Masturah Ahmad

Its my mantra for now..

;)

nuff said.

Im going to bed.

Tata!

My super low key raya...

2008-10-03T22:05:00.005+08:00

As known,
my éid was low key...

But prior to the news that my Gradma was admitted to hospital,
My family was still at home...

My bro and his family came...

Had a little fun with lil'Dini..
She and her Barney bagai tak dapat dipisahkan lagi...
hihihi....

I gave her my camera and...
voila! shes a pro for kids her age..;)

She just couldnt stop shooting...
Boy, was I entertained...
hehehe...

These are some of the peek-chas she took...

Complete family portrait...

My bro and his family...

And there she is..
Miss Dini aka "I-am-Barney's-number-1-fan"
;)

Raya treats....

My zakat for the kiddos...
(I've got a gazillion little cousins, nieces and nephews..kwang3)

And thats all
Coz I cant possibly take pictures in the hospital
can I...

PS: There goes my surprise...Surprise!! ;)

My Prayer...

2008-10-03T08:52:00.003+08:00

Hey
Its the third of Syawal..

I'd like to apologize to each and every one of my friends,
acquaintances and fellow blogger/blog readers for any blunders and mistakes
I did, intended or not..

Hope all of you had a wonderful 'eid..:)

Mine was low key
as my grandmother was admitted to hospital
the very 1st day of eid..

She fell,
broke her hip bone and fractured her wrist..:(
What worries me is the fact that she fell and fractured the same
hip bone some time earlier this year..:(

I pray to Allah Almighty,
May my beloved Grandma stay strong and
she will get well soon..

I extend my prayer to my sister in law's mother
who was also admitted to hospital for a minor stroke..
Syafahallah...

PS: Dilemma and Worried of what the future holds..

Lucky

2008-09-29T13:22:00.002+08:00

Dedication to FH:

Do you hear me,
Talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

*sigh*

(^_^)

F1 + Lewis Hamilton Craze

2008-09-27T01:16:00.008+08:00

Hello people..=)

Guess what??

I just got back from the F1 practice sessions at the singapore street circuit!
Verdict: I loike!

Well,
I was contemplating of getting out of the office early today,
and while I was at it,
my boss came to me and gave me TWO free tickets to watch the F1 practice sessions!

Boy was I excited!
I stopped contemplating and made my way down town to meet up with FH..
Bought some munchies for break fast and off we headed to the circuit..

I was in awe..
It was my first time ever watching an F1 race...
seriously!
And the only thing that comes to my mind when you mention F1 is: Lewis Hamilton and Ferrari...
Ask me anything else, I dont know..hihi...

The reason I was particularly intrigued by this year's F1 is the fact that it is in Singapore....
The first ever night race in history of F1 racing...
I was even more curious as to how the circuit would look like...
Hey, its the Singapore roads that we're all familiar with,
and all of the sudden its an F1 race track...

To be honest,
I was quite impressed with the circuit!
Who would have thought that Raffles Ave, St. Andrew road, Esplanade drive and Nicoll Highway can become a race track huh....

The whole area was brightly lit up as if it was daylight...
The Sound of the F1 cars was deafening but it kinda bring the excitement up...:)

I was secretly-no openly-happy the fact that Lewis Hamilton was in the first place among all other racers during the first practice session...
He came in third during the second session, but who cares when he is so gorgeous...;)

Hehehe...

Enough of the ramblings now,
Lets the peek-chas do the talking...
( I really wished I had a DSLR with me just now..But we just make do with what we had..hihi)

Our tickets! Came with a nice lanyard..

Im a very happy girl!

The big screen right in front of where we were seating...strategic seats we got eh...;)

Lewis hamilton's car!! ;)

Ferrari...I loike!

The Grandstand next to ours..

That Him! Lewis Hamilton! I loike!

Last But not least,
Tried to take pictures with one of the cars,
jadi lah ek...daripada takde...;)

After the practice sessions,
My ears felt numb...
hihihi...
Hope I wont go deaf tomorrow...
Need my ears to teach...ahakz..

Now,
Will you please excuse me,
I need to go get my beauty sleep....;)

Im out!
Toodles!

Pandangan 2 Sen Saya

2008-09-21T21:43:00.003+08:00

Raya bakal menjelang tak lama lagi..
Suasana di Geylang masa saya cuba-cuba berjalan kelmarin,
amat sesak dengan pelbagai ragam manusia yang tak kurang
''warni-warni'' nya..

Kenapa saya kata warna-warni?

Haa..manakan tidaknya, ada yang rambutnya bagaikan pelangi,
mana yang baju nya macam tak cukup kain, yang dah macam sarung nangka,
yang badan dah macam lukisan bergerak pun ada and also yang membuat mata saya berasa silau semacam dek aksesori emas dan perak yang di cucuk tang sana cucuk tang sini..

Astaghfirullah...detik hati kecil saya...

Sempat juga saya menjeling kearah segelintir mereka ini yang begitu happening bershopping sakan..
Baju raya, kasut raya, perhiasan rumah dan yang sewaktu dengannya...

Dengan tak semena-mena perasaan segan datang melihatkan senario begitu..
Apa pula pandangan orang-orang bukan Islam terhadap mereka ini..?
Imej yang begitukan yang ingin kita berikan pada orang bukan Islam tentang
agama Islam dan penganutnya?

Apakah ini sememangnya trend yang membanggakan?
Apa agaknya makna Ramadhan dalam hati setiap mereka-mereka yang saya lihat itu?
Bersemangatkah mereka untuk menyambut raya?

Hmm..
Adakah perasaan kemenangan itu sedangkan puasa kita tidak sesempurna mana?
Sedih rasanya bila mengenangkan bulan suci ini dipandang enteng sahaja oleh sesetengah pihak..

Im not exactly the picture-perfect Muslim,
Saya sendiri masih banyak lagi ruang-ruang kosong yang perlu diisi dengan ilmu
supaya dapat menjadi Muslim yang lebih baik..

Tetapi saya bimbang dengan trend yang semakin berleluasa ini
bila terfikirkan,
apakah didalam keadaan masyarakat sebegini yang akan saya besarkan anak-anak saya?
Nampaknya memang beratlah tanggungjawab saya dimasa akan datang
dalam hal mendidik keluarga...

Namun,
Saya bersyukur melihat sesetengah pihak yang dapat memelihara diri
dari terpengaruh dengan anasir-anasir yang kurang sihat ini,
dan tetap menunjukkan imej yang positif di dalam bulan Ramadhan..

Kesedaran tentang peri pentingnya bulan Ramadhan dan erti kemenangan di bulan Syawal
belum cukup kental lagi dikalangan masyarakat kita...
Dan pada pendapat saya,
walau macam mana pun institusi-institusi atau jabatan agama dalam negara membuat inisiatif mempelbagai aktiviti bagi membagkit kesedaran tentang bulan Ramadhan,
ada satu institusi penting yang menjadi akar bagi segala tindak-tanduk setiap manusia
iaitu institusi keluarga....

And not forgetting, pokoknya diri setiap individu itu sendiri samada hendak berubah atau tidak..Nobody can change a man, if he does not want to change himself..

Oh well,
Itu cuma padangan 2 sen saya (just my two cents worth)..:)

Mudah-mudahan Allah Taala memberi mereka dan juga saya petunjuk...

Amiin..

Whats Up Whats Down

2008-09-18T13:32:00.002+08:00

Oh Gosh!
Eversince the last time I had an emotional breakdown,
everything's just been going so slow...

Life seemed so mundane..

Have not done any shopping for 'eid..
I just dont have the time...
Why do I have to go to the shops,
why cant the shops come to me instead?
hmmm.....

Reached home 7+ pm after work,
By the time Im too tired to do anything,
I just want to lie down and sleep..

I've got a weekend job now..
Which I pretty much like...
Alhamdulillah...

For the rest of Ramadhan,
I might be busying myself
working from Mon-Sun...

So there,
That's what I've been and will be up to
for this month...

I've been day-dreaming a lot
about going for a holiday....
A road trip maybe.....
Just jalan-jalan, cam-whoring and eat eat eat!
ahakz...

Its nice if it could come true...
But for now,
it shall remain a dream...;)

Im out.

Tata!

Hello..I Present You DiDi..

2008-09-16T22:56:00.003+08:00

Presenting our new baby..

Her name is DiDi...
;)

Well,
She's a total contrast from her sister BiBu...
But She's also a beauty..
She's skinny but she's strong...;)

ahakz...

She's definitely lighter than BiBu,
so at least I can handle her ...:)

Welcome to our family DiDi..!

Never My Forte

2008-09-16T13:10:00.003+08:00

Living in Monotony is never my Forte..
Give me back my life.........
Please.....

My Mini Photography Project

2008-09-10T22:32:00.004+08:00

Was feeling down for the past few days..:'(
that explains the silence behind my secretdoor..

This morning was the craziest!
I had a sudden emotional breakdown
IN the office...!
Luckily no one was in the office...
phew!
I dont even know why I was so overcome by emotions that I
cried buckets out of the blue.....
huhu....

FH suggested focusing on
things I like...
And that got me thinking of photography...

Its been a while since I last snap with passion..
chey~~
So I went to P*opular B*ookshop and bought a few essentials... :)

So just now I did a mini project..

Managed to find these for the subject matter...
Not my bestest shots,
but not bad for someone who's been hanging her camera
behind the door for so long...;)
hihihi...:)

Tomatoes! I dont like tomatoes...
But the moment I found out its good for the face,
I swallowed them like I love them to bits..hihi..:)

Tried to play around with the lighting to get
different effect and colours...:)

My favourite perfume...Cant live without them..;)
Incidences in life taught me valuable lessons about life...

Two other perfume I got from my mom..
Have not used them yet...

Hey!
All my perfumes are PINK!
I loike!

*sigh*

I just wish this nagging feeling in me
will go away...:(

Just thinking about it
makes fell all teared up...:'(

I want ice-cream..............................
I NEED ice-cream....
*endorphines needed urgently*

Im out!

Who's Who

2008-09-04T09:54:00.002+08:00

I am amazed at how
I can keep my composure well and balanced
over some quite hurtful things..

Its funny how people can decide for others
without waiting for a final say...

Thanks a lot..

Pfft...

Or is it,
My own fault, that things had to come to this state?

Maybe....

Nevermind,
Now I know who's who...

In this world, you just cant rely too much on others...

You only have yourself....

My Very Own

2008-09-02T15:25:00.003+08:00

My very OWN brand NEW desktop set..!!

After selling my no-longer functioning N*E*C lappie
to uncle karung guni,
my parents bought me this new sleek looking HP desktop set..

It is a graduation gift from them..:)
Thank you mak!
Thank you bapak!

and.....

I am loving it!

Alhamdulillah!!

Saying Goodbye

2008-08-31T22:15:00.006+08:00

A few more days,
and I'll be saying goodbye to BiBu..*Sobs*

Nevertheless,
BiBu will always remain in my memory..
I'll always remember BiBu;
the good times we had with her..
Like what FH said,
I'Allah we will get something even better
in future...:)

Will send BiBu away with an open heart,
to make it an easy transition
for FH and me....

Caaaaaaayang BiBu banyak banyak!!!!!

BiBu will give way to her new sister....
Her name begins with the letter D! ;)

Shall reveal it later after her arrival..
*Wink*

Ramadhan is here!!
Alhamdulillah....:)

I hope for the best Ramadhan...
For myself at least...
I'Allah, I will be able to achieve my target this year...
Amiin....

May Allah bless all the muslimin and muslimat
with good health so we will all be able to perform
our ibadah at its best for this Ramadhan....

Ahlan Ahlan Ya Ramadhan~~

:)

The Official Graduation Photo

2008-08-29T12:05:00.004+08:00

Just gotten the official graduation photos from kak Far..
Thanks to whoever is involved in getting the photos for me....

:)

Syukran Kathiran..

Cant wait for my Studio shoot...!! :))

CONVO-ED part II: The Big Day

2008-08-27T09:40:00.015+08:00

25 August 2008:

THE BIG DAY!!!!!

Again woke up at 4 a.m.
hehe...
Checked-out from Sucasa
at 5.45 a.m.

Excitement was building up
super fast!!

Felt butterflies in my tummy...
Orang kawin pun kalah...:p
hihi....

My FIRST picture with the robe..

Time checked: 6.45 a.m!
already in IIUM!
Sooo early....hihi...

Went to my very much missed
Department of Communication...

COSA's notice board now very pretty..

IIUM going green..

7.30 a.m: met Aisyah Spec and family.
Struggled a bit with the robe..
We needed assistance to wear the robe properly..
hehe....

Look at us with our assistants...;)

Ais with her assistants..

Me with my beloved assistant...;)
Dialogue-(lebih kurang lah)
Me: Dont you dare spoil my tudung's 'masjid'..
Him: Taklah..kalau depan sikit baru lawa...

;)

Ok Im ready!
(take note: The Tassel on the Mortaboard is on the Right,
before graduation)

At this point,
My heart was beating so fast
I swear I couldnt concentrate on anything else...
Lucky Dear was there to help bring my parents to
the Great Hall....

The Stage!!

Thats the Main Procession..

IIUM Rector,
Prof. Syed Arabi 'Idid
Giving his speech..

From where I was seating...

I was in cold sweats
when my row was finally called to get ready
to go up on stage...

I couldnt even talk to anybody..
I was reciting Basmalah every second
hoping I wont embarrassed myself by tripping
or the mortaboard falling of my head..
hihi....

Alhamdulillah,
I managed to get up on stage feeling confident
and beaming proud...
I did not fall flat on my face,
that's a good thing...
hihi....

Once outside the hall,
As usual there was the
"mana parents/anak aku?" session..

Once the jejak kasih is settled,
Its picture time!!!!!
:)

Me and my parents..
(Note the Tassel again, Its on the left now..
Graduated!!)
To Mom and Dad:
Thanks for all your sacrifices...
Rest assured I wont forget them Insya Allah...:)

Me and Kaed..
Course partner cum partner in crime..;)

Me and Ais..
Partner since Alsagoff- Matriculation and
now together an IIUM Graduate..:)

Me and Mr Rainbow...
Partner in everything....
To FH:
What more can I say...:) Thank you for EVERYTHING!!
Your love, your motivation and your sacrifices..
I treasure it all...:)

Went to HS-
The famous Singaporean Students' lepak-ing place...

Met the rest of my Singaporean buddies
Both seniors and Juniors...
Thank you all for you well-wishes...

There was so much to say
in so little time...
Nevertheless,
you all made my day...:)
Made it a more memorable day for me...

And to the rest of my kakak-kakak Legend:

To Za:
Thanks for helping out with the robe..
If not for you, I wont be wearing it that day...:)

To Kak Far:
Thanks for the great time together walking
back to our Mahallah..
and the excitement over the new walkway
to the mahallah..hihi..
Say thanks to kak Sar for the pretty pink wand..;)

To Shasha:
Thanks for making my stay in IIUM
a FUN one...:)

To Suli:
Thanks for being my coolest Comm junior! :)
You rock babe..;)

Last but not least,
To me:
With that Convocation Ceremony,
I pray to Allah Almighty that
my learning journey wont end there...
May Allah bless me with the wealth and health to
further my studies...
For the road to knowledge is NEVER-ENDING...:)

Finally!
I am now an official IIUM Graduate,
Bachelor in Human Sciences (Communication) (Honours)

With all that Said,

I sign out with
Alhamdulillah, haza min Fadhli Rabbi
and Assalamualaikum.....:)

CONVO-ED part I: Pre-Convocation

2008-08-27T08:48:00.009+08:00

I am officially an IIUM Graduate!!

It was a wonderful experience...
Something that I've dreamt of
since primary school!!

That explains my excitement for the past few days..

I shall make my Convocation entry into two parts,
So that it will be easy for you people to follow...:)

Sunday 24th August 2008:

I woke up at 4 a.m!!
woke everybody up,
waited until after Subuh
and we were on our way......yippie!

6.15 a.m: On our way

Us at the back..

Over the causeway, It was still dark...

Had Breakfast at Aliff restaurant in JB...

Kuala Lumpur here we come!!!!

Our stay for the night: The Nomad Sucasa Hotel@Ampang.

Room Number.

View from up above..

What we wore..Cute right..hihi...

Time to jalan-jalan..

Went to GM Plaza, shopped around
and I suggested we all go to IIUM Convest Hill..

But I pestered my dad to wash his car first..
Nak masuk IIUM,
Takkan kereta nk biar kotor..
hihi.....:p

So there, all snowed up..

Random Rooster..(orang bandar nampak ayam= Jakun-ness..hihi)

We were all hungry so we headed
to Kubor ( a well-known makan place among geng2 IIUM)
to eat!!

Walked around for a bit
and we saw this particular booth
with a fish spa...

Dad and Fitri gave it a try...

Fitri was tickled-stiff by those fishes..
haha....

Went back to the Hotel,
Gotta get my beauty sleep..
Big Day ahead!!!

Wait for part II of CONVO-ED...;)

Tata!

3 More Days!!!!!!

2008-08-22T08:40:00.004+08:00

T.G.I.F!!!

I've been anxiously counting
down the days..

I couldnt stand being in the office anymore...
I am very very excited!

And now,
Its 3 more days to go....

THREE more days for my CONVOCATION!!!

Gosh!
I miss my IIUM friends ..
I miss my coursemates ..
I miss my lecturers..
I miss my department, Department of Communication!

Best department ever..
To me lah ok....:p

I know my kakak-kakak Legends pun
tengah excited giller right now...

Cant wait to see each one of you
in the Robe...

hihihi....

Ok,
Im outta here..

Tata!!!!

.

2008-08-19T14:33:00.003+08:00

I have failed as a communication graduate.

No matter what I say,
I just couldnt get the message across.

Often misunderstood.

Im sick and tired of having to defend myself.

I'd better conform to what others say
hence reducing the amount of misunderstanding.

.

.

.

Crazy White Dog and a Harry Potter??

2008-08-18T09:01:00.007+08:00

Walking to work today was unusual...
Bumped into Amirah,
an old friend..

So we walked together
coz her office is just next to my office...

The number of dogs loitering around was unusually
more than usual..

I was scared but kept cool...

But when we almost reached our offices,
I saw a HUGE white dog walking towards us...
Tried to keep cool and walk as usual not looking at it...

nevertheless,
Amirah started to panic; screamed and tried to run..
That attracted the dog's attention and it came running to us..

Huwaaaa...
macam nk pengsan!!

Amirah took cover behind me
and I have to FIGHT for my life!!
hihi...

I didnt know I was brave enough to
swing my BIG heavy bag into it's face...
eeeeeeeek.....

But it didnt go away laaa...
Ish!

I swear I even tried to "woof" it away...
A deep dog-like woof....
It didnt work.....
hahaha....
made a fool out of myself...

Luckily a guard and a chinese guy saw
us struggling with the dog..
They helped and I ran like never before to my office..

Haizzz.......

Ni yg bertekad nk naik taxi je hari2...
;)

Anyway,
I wanted to blog about my trip to KL last weekend..
Collected my CONVOCATION ROBE!!!
Yippie!

Reached there 8++
Rushed to Za's room..
Thanks Za for all your help....:))

The moment I reached CAC
The queue was wah liao.............................long lah sey....
But thanks to Kaed,
She let me cut queue...hihi...

first thing was to collect
the convocation card...
When I saw my name,
I jumped for joy!

"yay! nama I ada...nama I ada...!"

hihi....

and then,
the moment I got my robe,
the very moment I touched the robe
for the FIRST time,
I felt a surge of pride!!

"This is it! THE robe...THE robe!"

Was excited so I tried it on,
And I felt like harry potter
without the magic wand of course...;)

It was a short trip,
and I realised that I missed IIUM
more that I thought....

So I am now all hyped up
for my convocation....!

yay!

Cant wait to meet all my friends...!

:)

Wanted to take a picture of the robe
and show it here...
But I thought, naaaah!

Will wait till I wear it for the actual
ceremony....

;)

So watch this space for more
convocation updates!

:)

P/S: Journey took around 2 and a half hours to reach IIUM Gombak! BiBu was FLYING~~ ;)

and counting.....

2008-08-14T16:15:00.002+08:00

Counting the days to my Convocation.

GOSH!

Deep Sexy Red Hot

2008-08-07T08:55:00.003+08:00

To FH:

Hope you like it..
Deep sexy red hot...

A waaaayyy advanced birthday present..
hihi....

A gift from me..
for ALL the things you've done and given to me..

Lap you many many....
hihi....

Mmuach!

Alhamdulillah!!!

2008-08-07T08:36:00.004+08:00

Alhamdulillah!!

I am very happy and satisfied...
I finally got it!

and Im Lovin' it! :)

presenting..............................

Nini~~~~( thats the name...hihi..)

My very own PINK-ish Nintendo DS Lite!!
Cute!

Now I wont have to feel that
my journeys on public transport
is like forever..........

Lotsa girlish and kiddy games
installed...
I loike~~~

Ever since I graduated,
I've been wanting to get something "big"
for myself..
Something precious with my own HARD earn money...

And
I decided to get Nini...

Now I dont have to just
drool when my mom and my brothers
play their psp....
I can play with my Nini...

Anybody wants to get
PSP or Nintendo
with VERY good bargain,

I recommend Tingsin.
I must say I got quite a good deal..:)

Satisfied.

p/s: Going to miss you over the weekend. Nevertheless, have fun riding and do ride safe.

Coz We Were Meant To Be

Whats in it

Our Little Knight!

2012 will change OUR lives..forever

2nd leg of the race, starts now

Dear Hubby

Smelly smelly the nose is naughty

A few more hours to 7 weeks

Worried

Smooth-sailing

Firsts

Gratitude

Nothing good to say? So ZIP it!

Little Princess's Birthday

Blogger app

Bits & Pieces of My Syawal

Solemn 'Eid

Its not meant to be, yet

To be or not meant to be?

Ahlan Wa Sahlan Ya Ramadhan

I did it!

Patience, My Dear Girl, Patience

Focus. Live a Positive Life.

Get It Right

The Pink S is MINE!

For The Daddies

Kerana Nur Adalah Yang Terindah

Kenapa?

Solat is Yoga

You May Call Me Fatty

Marry Me, Mary

Bonus!! yay!

of the weekend and some random ramblings

Its a Holiday

Our 1st

Childhood heaven

The True Meaning of Sacrifice

Little things go a long way

Puzzling Me

Say it LOUD AND CLEAR!

Holloween Scare-fari!

Im Just Quiet

Eat.Pray.Love

Navigating

Earning IT

'Eid Mubarak

Back To My Roots

Today

Sneaking Spicy Umian

Words are not enough

New life

the ones I will miss

Eager to scream

What A Monday

Once in a lifetime

DREAMS can wait long long (NOT!)

"sometimes its not that we want to be choosy, but we have important things to factor in thus we request a certain expectation..but people dont know that..and when we give in and follow suit, we face with hardship in life..who wants hardship? nobody..*confuse soul*"

Test

That Precious Little Darling

I SEE YOU IN COURT

Back to My Roots

Relink! Relink! Relink!

Should I or Shouldnt I?

Excuse Me

Ada Masa Mata

I am FREAKIN ANGRY

Just an update after so long....

My Precious Blue Gem

:(

Crazy Ending And Beginning

Towards the SEVENs

Show Me The Path

NotTheBestOf Me

I Paling-mesra-pelanggan But I still get Shit!

Isnt She Precious

WantToAdopt

Ice-Skating and a Famous Person

Surreal Yesterday

All P*INC and Shiny

My Mantra.

"sometimes its not that we want to be choosy, but we have important things to factor in thus we request a certain expectation..but people dont know that..and when we give in and follow suit, we face with hardship in life..who wants hardship? nobody..confuse soul"